In my frustration that all the changes that were happening to me, one day I decided to sit down and write a letter to the invisible woman who appeared to me in my meditations sometimes. I was never good at being in the middle of change and not knowing what was going to happen next so it was really a letter of me complaining about not knowing.

I was sitting in one of my remote offices, which by now you know as a coffee shop, when this actually happened right outside the window.

Excerpt from Chapter 8 Making the Right Move

“I think the Empress of the Universe was reading over my shoulder as I wrote the letter because it wasn’t long after that an odd thing happened with a limousine. I was sitting in a restaurant on a rainy day. I liked the restaurant because the owners supported artists so there was always interesting art hanging on the walls. On this particular day there was a new exhibit and I chose to sit under a bright acrylic painting of Mother Source titled Goddess of All. I was imagining myself safe and protected in her arms as I drank my tea and stared out the window at nothing in particular, knowing that soon I would have to get out my notes and do some work.

“A white stretch limousine pulled up to the curb just outside the window in front of me. The male driver got out and walked back to open the door for two women and a child who emerged from the back seat. They talked a few minutes on the sidewalk and then they all walked away. A few minutes later, one of the women came back and went round to the driver’s side and got in. She started up the limousine and right there in front of me did a U turn in the middle of the street and pulled away. What a gutsy move, I thought.

“I realized I’d better sit up and take notice because I have a history with limousines. They frequently showed up in my Dreams where some man of power (Carlos, David or one of the elders) was driving it. In Dreaming I’d ride along sometimes sitting in the back but other times in the front and we’d have long conversations, little of which I was able to bring back into my waking life. A couple of times, I was driving one or maybe it was a bus. It was determined at the time that I was a lousy driver, and when I left Dreaming and returned to my ‘awake’ life, even David said I was a lousy driver in dreaming. But in my Dreaming there were two kinds of limos: the black ones and the white ones.

“In fact, when limousines would pass by me during the day in ‘awake’ time, I noticed a pattern. If they were white and going the same direction as I was walking, I knew to pay attention, because a lesson was on its way to me. If they were black it might be a lesson, but it wasn’t going to be a comfortable one, usually! If either colored limo were going the opposite way, there was a different kind of lesson, and might be just an acknowledgment of a lesson completed, or just a hello, or even, a ‘we aren’t here for you today’ message.

“So when the white limousine pulled up in front of my restaurant window, I knew it meant listen up big time. I watched with total attention and was completely surprised when the woman who was riding in the back seat came back and got in the driver’s side of the limo. When she did a U turn I was simply flabbergasted. I had to figure out what that meant. It was really important.”

Nobody knows you better than your own guidance. Mine was amazing at offering me delightful Grande metaphors, as well as throwing me into new situations without a road plan.

This section is the beginning of real concrete change for me and at the time, as usual, I was Flying Blind and with nothing but faith in my guide and that I was pointed in the right direction.

Excerpt from Part 3. Forwards, Backwards, Blending Both

“In the daily living part of my life outside of the book things began spinning in a new way and I followed the path forward. Then I found my partner in Dreaming. Finally!

“Okay, perhaps I could have saved myself a whole lot of problems if I’d paid attention to what my partner told me in Dreaming. I have a long list of excuses why I didn’t, but in the main, my heart was following its lead. Maybe it was the Empress of the Universe’s way of testing me to see if I was able to follow where my heart was taking me. Or maybe I am just too undisciplined and headstrong. I want what I want when I want it.

“Looking back I can say it was a worthwhile set of intense and at times frightening, silly and emotional experiences all packaged in one. But the energy that I was able to gather because of it was my prize and that energy was a key I needed for the activities that would shortly take place.”